please don't try anything if you're thinking it. you're only 23 and you've still got so much to live for, so much more to experience. and people DO care about you, and they care about you a whole lot more than you realise. don't ever tell yourself otherwise. if need be, get help where it's needed, be it family, friends, medical help, anything that helps ease anything you're going through. you'll make it through this, i know you will. you just have to see how much you mean to everyone around you.