holy shit i'm eating captain crunch and xanax and klono at the same time. it's like that fate thing but not really cos there's no such thing in this vast, cold, dark, meaningless landscape in which we exist - you know, those common grounds we share as empty vessels that were full of meant to be discarded emotions; those common worthless grounds. my eyes are defocussing again but you're a good guy. a good drunk guy. i had a dream about pj and keren ann and it was a dirty one. it gave me that one feeling that's considered positive and the opposite of sad. i should sleep more and dream more